A Farewell

My dearest Beemer,

 Right now, my heart is still hurting because I am missing you so much. I know that it has only been a day since you left me to go to puppy heaven but it already feels like a lifetime. I will be missing the little things you do like always know when I have arrived and bark until I come and get you or allow me to be the only person to get near you when you are in one of your tantrums/ “moods”. I know I might not have shown you how much I loved you while you were with me but be assured that I did.. so much.. I am sorry that I was unable to provide a home for you that you deserved. I am sorry that I let you suffer. I should have brought you to the doctor right away. I am sorry that I did not get to spend a lot of time with you. There are so many things that I want to apologize for but I guess the important things is that you will no longer be experiencing pain from now on. I know God will provide a home for you and the other doggies there in heaven. Please always remember that I will be keeping you in my heart for ever. I love you so much 😦

prayers for my baby

my darling dog, beemer, is dying. he has contracted leptospirosis and is currently confined at the vet’s. i have been warned that he may not survive this. pretty soon i’d have to make a decision. do i let him continue to fight his illness or should i let him go and rest forever instead? this is breaking my heart and causes me so much sadness that i’m brought to tears every time i think about it. please include beemer in your prayers. he is a darling dog and i love him so much 😦